somehow I feel the last entry was too personal or too much. It's honest. So I feel like I should leave it up there. But I (a) hate being treated as though I am fragile, and (b) don't want to have people get the impression I'm whining to get sympathy. So I may pull it. I'll likely edit it, at the least. But since I'm torn, and since today is such a weird day--my first day of feeling sort of okay, and I've been surprised by an avalanche of moodiness and sadness--I figure now isn't a good time to make decisions about what to trim and what to leave, or if even to say anything at all. So I'm leaving it for now, but it may change.